i need more mundane things
I think i should have a tv showing the video of the walk to and from the gallery
I need to find a way to find something that is shattered + something on the walls —- maybe the drawings if i can frame them
I want the
You built the system and that becomes multipurpose, recc rooms, waiting rooms, gallerys are all flex spaces, blurred in their use, transformable
I am thinking about working with others as a way of abstracting oneself, as a blurring and a contact point;
I know that the border is not a metaphor. Its does not create difference rather it protects sameness and that sameness is in service of the market–we use the same softwares and create profiles through cookies that makes transparent the very minutiae of our outward lives. The state targets us individual by what about the mob?
disappear in the mob.
i dont think that the crowd knowledge is not not authorship, if we lean on a black feminist practice of citation of we are clear about the labor distinctions can be it closer to a union? Or a co-op? collaboration is the way life work whether the markets find it easily saleable or not
would you approach the commune the same way a machine learning model, crowd sourced? stolen? shared?
Removal —---------------------------- multiplication
Self annihilation—-------------------- disappearance into the crowd
Refusal—----------------------------- service
Obfuscation —--------------------- encryption
Single use work—--------------multiuse system
Personal as social —------------the social relentless
care—--------------------------------need
Obligation—-------------------------------witness
Secrets—-----------------------------gossip
Show—-------------------------------infrastructure
Relationship—---------------collection
Martyrdom—————————grace (simone weil)
dissolve—----------------------------multiplication
hope———————————miracles
I dont do this because i am not selfish, i am actually a monster. I am taking bite from everyone and spitting them out and putting them together to make a frankenstein image of myself and i love it that is selfhood, that is mediation thru technology and love and the online world where i can screenshot my jealous obsession and make it my own because it is part of me.
Surveillance technology is best targeted by extreme dissolve into a collective identity. Where the data driven algorithms and automation ask for hyper individualized profiles for control, we are able to find anonymity is strategies like, black block and communal action
I dont think its accumulation tho
its a camouflage a ruin to create this shattered persona that distorts the lens of capture.
That is an identity of multiple or rather an identity that is shaped by the entry into the collective? How do i make this really simple and clear?
The commune and its realities??????
I guess what is weird about this genre of “participary” is the fact that its names as such, what is just co-authorship, its weird like calling a video game participatory art or a film. I think what marks it, the field operated on hierarchy and of course that is analogous to capital
Blurring identity with others as a way to counter surveillance and branding what is a solo if not a way to ciruclate more easy. you think people will come?
the virtual can be a place where you hide also build. i think its hot to think about opacity and hiding but if you cant hide. i am s0 sun burnt, and not in a regular way but in a way that is a second degree burn. im peeling. why didnt i protect myself where is my self preservation. i dont have any. how do build that for myself. my work has been like pure and searing burning. i both am desperate to be colored by the sun but dont have any limits. the virtual isnt a limit, its limitless in the way capital can be limitless and compounding. its the realm of the speculative and compounding not the real.
what do i want to feel? supported? loved? like i am smart and clever and can do a good job? my emotional register is stunted.a moment of change but i only know that to be rupture and pain. i can transmute it into something meaningful like im supposed to. constant value creation. i keep on hurting myself dont find comfort. but i do live a comfortable life. i live in a war zone but im lucky, the threat in immanent but not specifically threatening.
i’m always told i need to relax and maybe so.
NOT HIDING AT ALL
VULNERABILITY IS WHAT I/WE WERE BORN INTO
NOT BAD
Look i can pull this away from just the border and into resistance and different and cutting the pulling back of skin a wound the barrier
look forgive me but Deleuze was right!
difference is not the issue, social differenciation is the stuff of it all. thats the generator that why we have organs that scream but all keep digesting.
i think the barriers and contact point of bodies and plants and the stuble body psychic tech self is absolutely life giving.
And hyper vis
What borders do is protect sameness.
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me bc I'm falling for an ai
or VISABLE BORDERS
Virtuality
+ Visability
V****ty
+ V****ty
July 6, 2025
I think what i mean is that the border or the logic of the border becomes diffuse, it is no longer material but rather it is virtualized like a fog over the land, minds and relationships.
Its both legislative when BP can extend the border 100 miles in any direction or when self disclosure within state and commercial capital apparatus is ingrained in social self worth. Vi***lty is paramount for these systems, but what about borders right
they bring about these lovers. she once told me that boundaries are borders and i know what they meant even though it was crazy.
I think its important to note that when I mean v***l i do not always mean digital but rather i exploit because its my turn bitch
I think i do consider my work spiritual even though i have this really base part of me that resistss it because i dont like the circles that a new age sort of crunchy vibe (that i truthfully come from lol i need to remember that i went to do mushrooms in topanga as a teen and hyperventalated with white women under blankets and we walked about our illnesses) but i have changed and matured and maybe that maturation is conformity but not really because i feel like i am the closest ive ever been to a true spirituality, my lifes path is to grow closer to that, i am so devotional. But how can i reconcile this with my interest in less about an altar and more about a transcendent and transformational experience. OR MAYBE ITS IS AN ALTAR
But also these fucking symbolic images–
July, 1, 2025
